Friday, July 30, 2004

Never mistake activity for achievment

Fuck you, Bill Walton (via John Wooden).

Battle #2:
In my case, activity often is achievment.

So, this one is inertia/sloth/inactivity v. activity and effort.

Things and people that help me actually try new things and get things done get a pass.

On this count, i'm not sure where the blog stands, but Battle #1 trumps any indecision here. Insider: "Never mistake activity for achievement." This famous John Wooden saying has definitely become a Walton classic. It is always hilarious to hear Tolbert say, 'Boy, Malik Rose is really working hard out there against Shaq.' Only to have Bill come back with, 'That's true Tom, but remember, never mistake activity for achievement.' Classic Walton. "


Here's part of the current battle:
Isolation vs. Connection.
I think that this helps in the connection area.

Thank you, as always, for your patience.

Google Search: menhir

Here you can find pictures of menhirs.

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The Greatest Blog on Earth

The New York Times > Opinion > Op-Ed Contributor: Show and Tell: "Between going panel to panel, speech to speech, party to party at the Democratic National Convention this week, I called Kenneth Feld, chief executive of the Ringling Brothers and Barnum & Bailey Circus. 'What are your criteria for a terrific act?'' I asked. 'How do you make 'The Greatest Show on Earth' '? His answer: You get the audience to ask, 'How did you do that?' He offered another, crucial element for creating a riveting show; to deliver the unexpected."

Friday, July 16, 2004

Scar Tissue


so. until midnight tomorrow, or, until at what point i leave for the Indian casino, i'll still post.

when I was in Spain 4 years ago, escaping the first run of puddletown (realllllllly lonely, and a lot less drug filled - check for me at i listened to this and 'Coffee & TV' by Blur on my fancy new reads burned audio CD's walkmen.

look at the background on their site, and tell me that doesn't mean anything for our future.

Scar Tissue: "My favourite here is 'soft spoken with a broken jaw'. I found this lyric on the web because D and I couldn't figure out what it was that they were saying in the chorus.
Next question: What does it mean?"

military, without the military

so, every once in a while, i get the jones to just break anew. it's probably from moving so goddamn much as a child, or perhaps not being breast fed, or perhaps a fear of a place called home.

anyhow, i think AgainAgain is going to suspended for the rest of the summer. please feel free to direct any complaints to mike.ward at

do me a favor: if the Polyphonic Spree come to your town, go and see them, and if you like them, buy a t-shirt.

Are you a Warrior? sayeth the Wu-Tang Clan and the movie.


Thursday, July 15, 2004


From Wayne's World:

"Wayne Campbell: I once thought I had mono for an entire year, It turned out I was just really bored."

Fuckin' A. Even the fun stuff is boring. I'm going to sit in the sun now and play poker and pretend like there's an end to this interminable nonsense.

I've come in twice this week and the lesbian is just sitting there on the couch, staring off into space. Man, she's got problems, they're just a lot more evident. At least she doesn't seem disengaged.

Wednesday, July 14, 2004


This is the Born project that I don't talk about. The artist switched the idea on me after we had already agreed on a concept. And the graphics suck. And I'm really not entirely sure that there are matching pieces. But oh well. It's actually not as bad as i remember. href="">Memories001

Streets Lyrics :: Dry Your Eyes

Didn't blog much about my 2nd Born project 'Everything happens for a reason' Memory Game.

The Streets again: Streets Lyrics :: Dry Your Eyes: "Dry your eyes mate
I know it's hard to take but her mind has been made up
There's plenty more fish in the sea
Dry your eyes mate
I know you want to make her see how much this pain hurts
But you've got to walk away now
It's over."


The last track of the Streets 'A Grand Don't Come for Free.'

Begins with the conclusion of Mike's story, the terrible ending, the end of a Grand and so many other things. Than it ends with a long screeeeecccccchhhhhhhh that's just rewinded the song. He starts again, this time with a better attitude and not surprisingly, things turn out for the best. Now our kid's been left with a more mature, more adult point-of-view, but if you ask me, it's a practical optimistic self-interested cynicism.

THE STREETS LYRICS - Empty Cans: "The end of the something i did not want to end,
Begining of hard times to come.
But something that was not meant to be is done,
And this is the start of what was. "

Ogden Nash | What's the use?

Kate, recently: You need a hobby. You've been blogging too much.

Kate today: You need to update your blog.
Me: I thought you said I needed a hobby.
Kate: You do, but one that includes blogging.

Ogden Nash | What's the use?: "What's the use?
by Ogden Nash

Sure, deck your limbs in pants,
Yours are the limbs, my sweeting.
You look divine as you advance . . .
Have you seen yourself retreating? "

Friday, July 09, 2004 - Four gored by Pamplona bulls - Jul 9, 2004

Well, at least my day is better than this. - Four gored?by Pamplona bulls - Jul 9, 2004: "PAMPLONA, Spain (CNN) -- Four men were gored on Thursday, including an American and a Briton, in the third day of the annual running of the bulls in Pamplona, a Navarra regional government spokesman told CNN.
Two Spaniards were also gored, including one hit by three different bulls in quick succession.
Five other Spaniards had non-goring injuries, from falls or trampling, that also were serious enough to merit a trip to hospital."

Thursday, July 08, 2004

Google Search: where in the world is carmen, san diego

I just looked up in my bedroom, and realized that I wasn't sure exactly what city I was in, nor what day it was.

To clarify: It's Thursday, almost Friday, and I'm in Portland, but in my new house.

I think I've slept in 20 different places over the past 4 months.

At least here, I've got my stuff. Or at least it's really nearby. Kudos to Sobier on an unreal packing of boxes into tight areas.

Google Search: where in the world is carmen, san diego


Tried to add a comment to the Casablanca quotes post, but I got bitchslapped for having too long a comment. (max=2000 characters)


2 additional quotes involving 'pride'.

Echo & the Bunnymen, in what was Ian McCulloch's poorly veiled departure song, 'The game': 'Pride, a proud refusal, I refuse to need your approval. Too many seekers, too few beacons, but through the fog will keep on beaming.'

And Richard Ashcroft (formerly of the Verve): 'Do you know how hard I'll try, to lose this foolish pride?
Can you take me as I am
Can you understand me (I'm changing now)"

In the post 'A Northern History' Verve/Ashcroft tracks, he's got this really cool production technique where the lyrics in parenthesis sound like he's answering his own lyric. that's a shitty description.

From Space and Time off Urban Hymns:
Oh, can you just tell me
It's all right (It's all right)
Let me sleep tonight
Oh, can you comfort me
Tonight (It's all right)
Make it all seem fine

My friend Adam once told me about a particular episode in his life, where he was comforted in the night.

He and his wife were going through some really hard times - I think she fell out of love with him, and there future was shaky like an Argentinian peso. Adam was a bit of a wreck, and it took him a while, but he opened up to me at the Blue Moon one night, let it all spill out. I think if you would've asked him, he would've said that he didn't think the marriage would work out.

It was tough times for him. Within the past year, his Dad had died in a car accident. Him and Kell called in the middle of the night for me to take them to the airport. Which I did, but then one of them forgot their ID (pre 9/11) and I went and got it and brought it to them.

That's what friends do.

Anyway, a few months after the Blue Moon night, Adam told me about a dream he had. He said that he was talking to his dad, and telling him about everything that was going on with him and his wife, and that his Dad told him that 'Everything is going to be alright.' and gave him a hug.

And it was.

And Adam truly believed that it was his dad speaking to him from beyond the grave.

'Oh, can you comfort me tonight?'
and distantly a voice sings back
('It's all right.')

drug use

to quote Casablanca again:

(while at Butshine, on a Tuesday afternoon, semi-beer gathering, I remarked to Shine that I was "Shocked! Shocked to see drinking going on here." He didn't get it.)

Memorable Quotes from Casablanca (1942): "
Rick: How can you close me up? On what grounds?
Captain Renault: I'm shocked, shocked to find that gambling is going on in here!
[A croupier hands Renault a pile of money]
Croupier: Your winnings, sir.
Captain Renault: [sotto voce] Oh, thank you very much.
Captain Renault: Everybody out at once! "

again! again!

again! again!

Reading Teacher Booked - June 28, 2004

Crap on a stick: I'm 19 years older than this kid, and there's no way that a Mike's Hard Lemonade and 2 Rophynol could've got me this chick.

Reading Teacher Booked - June 28, 2004: "Woman, 23, busted for 'encounters' with boy, 14
JUNE 28--Meet Debra Lafave. The 23-year-old Florida teacher is facing a host of felony charges for allegedly having sex with a 14-year-old male student. According to investigators, Lafave met the boy at Greco Middle School--where she taught reading--and had sex with him in her classroom, Isuzu SUV, and Tampa-area home. A probable cause affidavit prepared by the Marion County Sheriff's Office details Lafave's alleged involvement with the boy, who was interviewed by cops (as was his cousin, who was present for two of the auto encounters). According to the affidavit--portions of which were redacted by investigators--Lafave told the boy that she was 'turned on by the fact that having sexual relations with him was not allowed.' Since the incidents occurred in different jurisdictions, Lafave has been named in two separate criminal complaints. As such, she has posed for two booking photos: the below left mug shot was snapped at the Marion County lockup, while the picture at right was taken by Hillsborough County sheriff's deputies. (9 pages)
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Flight to Mars 2004

Flight to Mars 2004

Kate's birthday has been curtailed (the party, that is) from 3 til 7, meaning I can go to Seattle for this.

Hazelrigg's hot co-worker is heavily involved (heh,heh) in the camp, and will be there. besides going and getting fucked up on e with a bunch of new people is always fun. call it precompression, nonPDX style.

there will be no mention of the Crush in this post.

Wednesday, July 07, 2004

Memorable Quotes from Chasing Amy (1997)

So, 'Sir!' to quote 'Baby Boy' John, I'm up to Seattle, and 'that call was a little bit off, Sir!'

I'm up to Space Ball on Saturday, after Kate's bday thingy (sorry, Kate! i'll make it up to you, ma'am!)

But, you could take this quote a couple of ways, and I think the one that makes the most sense probably contains the most regret.

"We'll always have Paris."

But the line before... "you'll regret it. Maybe not today. Maybe not tomorrow, but soon and for the rest of your life."

Memorable Quotes from Chasing Amy (1997): "
Silent Bob: But, by the time I figured this all out, it was too late; she moved on. And all I had to show for it was some foolish pride which then gave way to regret. She was the girl. I know that now. But, I pushed her away. So I've spent everyday since then chasing Amy. So to speak.

Banky Edwards: This is all going to end badly. "

LAUNCH, Music on Yahoo! - Badly Drawn Boy - One Plus One Equals One

Love, the epitaph. Love the epitaph. Epitaph would be a good word to pull out in scrabble.

LAUNCH, Music on Yahoo! - Badly Drawn Boy - One Plus One Equals One: "The record is dedicated to the memory of four people, and it's in this context it seems best understood. Joe Strummer and Elliott Smith are useful touchstones, songwriters skilled at picking up and burnishing hitherto insignificant detail, while Gough's grandfather, Will, and his friend Matthew Lanyon seem to have provided the ineptly sketched one with the thoughts and moods that suffuse this gently persuasive LP. It is the inscription on Will's grave stone that provides penultimate track 'Takes The Glory' with the album's defining sentiment ? 'To live in the hearts of those that you loved is not to die' ? while a photograph of Lanyon as a child, given to Gough in lieu of a birthday card, seems to underlie the album's mood of heart-felt introspection."

Jack Bog's Blog shut down, Broadway bridge, too.

Unfortunately, no pictures.

In the hard copy fishwrapper version, there's a shot of Jack wearing a shirt that says, 'I'm blogging this.' Search: "But today, to the dismay of his readers, Jack Bog is posting his final droll observation on the foibles of Oregonians, government and life -- unless, like Cher, he decides to stage a comeback next month.
The widely acknowledged king of Oregon bloggers is taking a monthlong hiatus to consider retiring from the demands of daily blogging, his hobby for the past two years. Bogdanski, like other bloggers, regularly posts his own take on the world -- the literary form is called a blog, a contraction of Web log -- on his own Web site ( Often inspired by Bogdanski, dozens more Oregon blogs have been born since Jack Bog's Blog went live on July 6, 2002, with an homage to rhythm-and-blues singer Howard Tate. "

The Best Choice (

Not sure if I blogged it, but another NYTimes article a while back described the two archetypes of America, 'The Gambler' and 'The Achiever.'

The Best Choice ( "American values were 'equality' and 'achievement.' Americans want a level playing field and don't like people who put on airs. But they also admire strivers. Edwards can give his 'two Americas' and 'dad in the mill' speech as someone who used the education system to rise up and get rich. That's the American story. "

The Best Choice

The Best Choice ( "When you hear Republicans disparage Sen. John Edwards's lack of experience, remember the words of Sen. Orrin Hatch, spoken to George W. Bush at a debate on Dec. 6, 1999.

'You've been a great governor,' Hatch declared of his rival for the Republican presidential nomination. 'My only problem with you, governor, is that you've only had four and going into your fifth year of governorship. . . . Frankly, I really believe that you need more experience before you become president of the United States. That's why I'm thinking of you as a vice presidential candidate.' "