Transparency is not mindless

So, I've been drinking way too much lately. That might not be apparent to all of my friends, because no one friend is catching the whole picture.

Meaning no one is calling me on partying too much, because there's no way of any of my current friends noticing how far gone I've gone.

To that extent, I'm going to start publishing my drinking stats here, in the hope that you, my fine readers (both of you), will call me out on it.

The biggest problem I've been having is drinking on my own lonesome. For example, Friday night I had 1 1/2 bottles of wine. Alone. Playing Halo 3 online.

Sad.

Followed by Saturday, drinking during the Florida game (a 6pack). Which might've been ok, but instead of cutting myself off and sobering up for the Halloween party at the Korean porno studio, I went to the store and got another 6 pack. Then stayed home again that night.

Sad and unhealthy.

Yesterday was a slightly better day. I only drank a 6 pack on my own, smoked a bunch of pot and watched football and the world series in a haze.

Bleh.

And that pretty much holds true to form for my drinking over the past 4 weeks. That's no good. I've been talking with my therapist about not being mindless, and yet what do I do every chance i get? Yeah.

So, please send me your encouragement and give some tough love. I don't mind going out and getting drunk, as long as it's with you, the folks I know and love. Staying home and getting drunk = not cool.

Thank you,
management